KhaoticNeutral

So not that anyone cares bc I had so few watchers here, but I am moving all of my work to koigagotoku here on DA. I'm in my own watcher list. It's 2020 and time for a totally fresh start. I am keeping this account open for now bc there's no telling what I may do with it in the future but for now, it will be very much dormant. 

It's been almost a year since I (uploaded art, and) made my last post about how I'm going to do better as an artist, but it seems that my words back then meant diddly squat. However, a few weeks ago, I had an epiphany.

I've gotta stop not finishing projects and I've finally realized why I do that. I am constantly comparing myself to other artists. Pros, peers, whatever. I'm always worried about how "right" something looks. I'm scared to make mistakes so if a piece isn't turning out how I imagined it down to the last detail, I give up on it. No more. Starting today, I'm going to focus more on enjoying what I'm doing instead of how "right" it is. I lost my creative self somewhere but I'm going to find it again. Otherwise, I'll never grow as an artist.

So, I mean it. Whatever piece I start from now on, I am sticking with. Come hell or high water, I WILL make my art, and I WILL enjoy it without comparing myself to others. If I see a technique I like, I will study it, but I am going grow into my own artistic self and be the creator I've always wanted to be.

Just finished a piece of art, FINALLY. It's been start and stop for a few months so it feels so good to get something done.

So ever since I bought Procreate in the App Store I've been a lot more interested in bettering my digital painting skills. I've done three pieces in the app and each time I push my boundaries a little more: I use no line art, I go for more realism, and I add more details. It's making me feel a lot better about myself. Right now, my iPad is the closest to a Cintiq I've ever been and it's really awesome... So much so that I'm looking into getting an actual Cintiq (or any quality drawing tablet) in the future. Something bigger than my iPad but not quite "professional" size (18+ inches). 

I really hope I continue to have time to work on my art. There's so much I want to do, so many stories I want to tell... Here's hoping.

So... I'm back in a bit of a funk. I have a lot of awesome ideas in my head, it's just really really hard to put them to paper because I am horrible at anatomy... Yea, I know practice makes perfect but when I really have a vision in my head, constantly getting proportions incorrect when trying to bring it to life really kill my enthusiasm. I look here for reference photos but it's really hard to find what I am looking for and I don't know anyone who would pose for me to draw a thumbnail! I've been doing a lot of writing and I want to put imagry with it but I can't seem to get it right! WOE IS THIS ARTIST. D;

On an almost related note, when I move into my apartment I intend to take up painting. I just don't have the space and quiet time here for that.